Friend

Today I had a good friend call me and wanted to visit.  I don't want to embarrass her so I'll leave her nameless.  First it was good to catch up; it had been too long.  Second I don't know what it is but every time we talk I can't help but walk away feeling renewed as a mom.  Validated in how I raise my kids, and that I am not alone when it comes to the hard parts of life, and with new ideas on raising my kids.  She must of just known that I needed something, a boost, a friend, or an awakening about how much I love being a mom.  I've always wanted to be a stay at home mom. I never realized how hard and draining it can be.  Some days I wish I went to work and Phil stayed home with the kids. Most days I am grateful I am able to be home, when I remember how exhausting it was to work, and be mom.  I love doing hair and am working out kinks to be able to do it at home sometime in the near future. But even then I wonder if I am doing the right thing there.  But then as we were talking about the things going on in our own life and the things we're doing and it hit me when she said ' I am doing what I always wanted to do, being a mom is what I pictured myself doing right now in life, and I am loving it'  

 I used to think that way and had that out look on life, that I wanted to be a mom at this point in my life. I don't know if I feel like I will lose parts of what makes me me by becoming only mom. Or this unrealistic standard of what I need to be/look like as a mom, and truly its totally unattainable. At times I am torn between my passion and my greatest adventure/creation/purpose in this life.  Don't get me wrong I love the craziness of my kids they are my whole world. And I have my whole life to do Hair, and only once to be with my kids like this.  I think I'll still do some hair but fully jump into Motherhood and become more then I am, become the mother I've always wanted and hoped I'd be.

Thanks so much my sweet friend, I can't express enough how much I needed our visit, and what an example you are to me. You are an amazing mother and friend.  Thank you for thinking of me in the busyness of life . Love you!   

Up date

So I've yet to find my camera, so as soon as I do you'll get some pictures.

We moved, and are almost all put together now.  I love having a house of my own, there is something about it that is so wonderful.  Phil and I have been looking for a year to find the 'right' house and we finally did.  I have also decided that anything that is truly for the good in your life is always going to be much harder then you think to get it, but always worth it in the long hall.  At lest for us it is.  

Moving on Halloween really sucked, mostly because its my favorite holiday. It was so crazy that i didn't even dress up.  But I must say Cora looked so dang cute in her Black Cat costume, and Lucky looked like a little stud in his Skeleton get up!  Phil took Cora trick or treating to a few houses on our street, and he said she was so cute, going up to the houses and saying 'trick our treat' and 'thank you' after. I stayed home and answered the door, while lucky napped.  A few kids asked "did you just move" I think the mound of boxes behind me would of been a dead give away, so i answered "yep today".  After Cora had her trick or treating experience we went over to our parents houses to visit them.  When we got home some punks had smashed our pumpkins. Phil didn't think it was that big of a deal because in his teen years he had done some pumpkin smashing of his own.  But it bothered me to be honest.  I know it comes with teenage boys but still some on are you really that board! Anyways, Halloween turned out to be good and crazy.

Moving day!!!

So were moving tomorrow, and I must say I am a little crazy these days. We closed on the house two weeks ago and between painting, cleaning, kids, and life in general I am a little nuts. Or at lest feeling that way. I am so excited about our house. But i am going to miss where we are at. We've been in the same place for 4 years. I love it we've been able to really make it feel like a home for us. We love our ward and so many people in it. I also love the trees, lame I know but I love driving up the street and seeing the beautiful trees, throughout all the seasons. Our new house doesn't have many trees. I hope to be able to plant some soon so they can grow and become beautiful! anyways its late and we have a big day ahead of us. I'll try to get some before and after pictures on here as soon as we get our Internet figured out.

"I am in protest"

I've been in a fight with nature. So last Saturday my milk went into full on protest, and its pretty much gone as of right now. I've been trying all sorts of things to help it out from drinking root beer, milk aid supplements, and extra pumping. But nothing has been helping. My Grandma Hogan had the same issue with all 5 of her kids. I must say I am so grateful that its lasted as long as it has. With Cora my milk was gone by 6 weeks. So I feel like it was quite a feat that Lucky got two and a half months of it. I think what I am most sad about it is Lucky likes to nurse, and it was really nice one and one time to have with him on a consistent basis. Even tho I've lost the fight with nature, at lest he's a super cuddlier and I love it. Cora likes to cuddle but for only like 10 seconds and she's off to something new, but she does look at me and say " mom... mommy... I love you". Lucky loves to get snuggle, and smile, and coo at you while your cuddling! Oh my kids melts my heart for sure.

On a side note, were closing on our house tomorrow!!! YEA for us.

I love this time of year!!!

I love fall, I love the crisp air, cooler weather not cold, its been a little too cold in my opinion. The colors and I can't wait for Halloween. Can I just tell you its my favorite. Its like the only time of year where you can be/act/and feel like a kid again. At lest for me. I've got the house all decorated. And our costumes all figured out; for the most part. Cora is going to be a black cat, Lucky and Phil are skeletons, and i am going to be a witch. The only bummer this year is that we might have to move on Halloween. So we'll see.

The other night our realtor's office was having a fall/Halloween party. We got like 15 free pumpkins. Can I tell you how cute my front door looks right now, I'll have to take a picture. Anyways they had face painting, and we were trying to get Cora to do it, So Phil did it first. When it came time for Cora to get hers there was no way she was going to do it. Phil was a good sport.

Good thing for hand wipes, we were planning on going to the store after.

Cora Creations!!

Cora has been helping pick out her out fits for the day for a while now. Its been fun to watch her personally come out even more. She loves her colored socks, leggings, and her hats the best.

So far I think this is my favorite Cora Creation ever!! She is in her rain boots, dress up skirt, wind breaker jacket, with her fav bennie. and under the boots are orange socks! I love you baby girl!

Two Months Already!

We had Lucky's 2 month appointment on Tuesday. I can't believe how fast the time has gone.

He's 11lbs 11ozs (50%), and 24 inches long (88%). I hope he turns into a chunky monkey, we'll see because he's so long. Lucky is so mellow, he's such a gem. He's been starting to coo, and smile. It so melts my heart. Cora will get down and talk to him, and put toys right in his face. Thats her idea of playing and sharing toys. A true blessing for the surprise he was!